My Beautiful Day

This is something I came across that my step-daughter, Claire, was going to post on my blog, but lost it before she posted. I recovered it today and decided it was something that needed to be posted. She wrote this on November 2, 2008 - before Monte and I were married. Here it is: 10 random facts about Kami 1. Her nose moves when she talks. 2. Her favorite season is Autumn, because of all the pretty colors and perfect weather. 3. As a child, her nickname was Goose. 4. When she was young, her dog Muffin got lethally bitten. 5. She is at Tanya Thom's home right now. 6. She likes to cook spaghetti. 7. She has a pair of pajamas with squirrels printed on them. 8. At a youth group she led, there was a disrespectful boy called Jeff. He never listened to anything she said; he also had an annoying habit of belching whenever she asked a question. One day, when he did the aforementioned sin, she bought a soda (the room they were meeting in had a vending machine residing in it), chugged it, an...

He loves unconditionally. He is steadfast in life. He loves his family to the fullest and is always striving for new ways to bond with them and new things to play. He believes in me and thus gives me the confidence to fully believe in myself. He supports me and encourages me. He laughs with me and holds me when I cry. He prays with me and seeks God with me. He travels with me. He is the hardest and most ambitious worker I know. He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He is the most amazing man I have ever met in my life. He is my blessing, the best gift I've ever received. My wonderful husband ... I love you, Monte!

This is something that I feel God is trying to drill into my heart - and something that I am really struggling with. In so many ways in the last two weeks I have felt Him telling me to have faith, to truly believe. Where am I lacking faith? Ever since my miscarriage, I am truly doubting my body's ability to carry a baby to full term. Ridiculous, I know, but it's a fear that is haunting me and almost making me scared to be pregnant again. That being said, in the last couple of weeks, I have heard many sermons about the need to prepare myself for the baby and to expect the baby. Like the man who was praying for rain - God said he would bring it and so one man prepared his fields for it, while the other did not. I need to prepare my fields. I truly believe that part of that is really making my body ready - no more occasional glasses of wine, cutting down to caffeine free coffee in the morning, that sort of thing. The other is truly believing. God had spoken to me through somethin...

It's completely true. For as long as I can remember, the only thing I ever really wanted to be was a wife and a mom. Sure, I can go to college and get a degree and waste my time (not saying that I think college is a bad idea, I'm just saying that it was never where I saw myself going) ... but why do that when I know I'm going to be a stay-at-home mom forever. It was the desire of my heart and I knew that it was going to be true. This is why, when I was 21, single and working a job that hardly paid anything, I was baffled at how my plan had gone wrong! Why would my heart so strongly desire to be a homemaker when the reality of it seemed so far away that there was no chance I was going to reach it? The one thing I continually leaned on was the verse in the Bible that says God will give you the desires of your heart. I heard a sermon right around age 21 that really stuck with me - that God gives you the desires of your heart because He has placed those desires within you. Gran...

I'm sitting in sunny Arizona visiting my in-laws (along with my step-son, Colin) and am having the time of my life! So why am I asking for your prayers? Because, just a few days ago, I had a miscarriage and we lost our baby. It's a really difficult thing to try to get through, especially when I'm so far away from my Monte. Please keep our family in your prayers, it's much appreciated! Rejoice in the Lord always, my soul, and again I say REJOICE ....... This is the day that the Lord has made, let us REJOICE and be glad in it! -- I'm not sure why it happened, but I do know that God is in control and He knows why. Because of that, I know that someday soon, I will rejoice!!